to finally feel. a tinge of that fear.
that fear. that was the result of not touching any math or econs notes after prelims.
what sadness. never to have tried.
finally, finally. it all came too late.
and i stare blankly day after day.
such a master of disillusion!
to trick oneself so much, such a self foolishness.
maybe the false walls are all crumbling apart.
i know i cannot justify myself having A or Bs.
it just all makes sense, when consecutive days can be wasted.
and tomorrow when i awake, my little wall shall be rebuilt.
providing falsified exuberance, and finally, paving the way for final punishment.
i have yet to learn.
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