finally, the letter came into the mailbox.
"you are hereby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (cap 93) ...
04 JAN 2010
to Basic Military Training Centre School"
my heart sank.
to enter that early, i dont have much time left.
i wished you'd have given me one more chance.
how i wanted to justify my value.
i dont want to lose, to lose what was once sought.
how i wished to echo "dont lose faith!"
the eternal gift of time. i harbour my thoughts, my wishes still.
am i being selfish again.
the news of a trimmed 7week modified BMT for non combat fit individuals and more chance of slack didnt do much to uplift the spirits.
i wanted to have lunch and tea and eat all day.
brownies and pies and pasta and coffee and the likes.
i wanted to roam the grass, a hand holding tightly, tightly onto the nylon cord.
flying the kite skyhigh
right before everything begins, and ends.
thats being selfish.
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