much to be done.
my nightmares.
the difficulties.
and the neglected studies.
to incur such high opportunity costs.
how natural to conflict?
my efforts, and a burning passion.
have i lost them.
i pick up a little fragment and was reminded.
not to give in, give up.
significance and appreciation. empowerment.
i dont like that neglect. take for granted.
"why dont u do this anymore?"
because it was never my duty. because i felt like doing so much in the past, because i felt compelled. because i felt the worth.
because i was not obliged to do things then.
satisfaction, appreciation, or perhaps even understanding, then,
cannot merely be kept facts of the heart.
like any relation that seeks communication.
i wondered, if i waited?
then, it was not because i have seen less value.
but because my value has depreciated.
against the others, i can now buy for less of an equal good.
a weakness, nonetheless.
and when things came around,
help that became significant.
that effort, i take pleasure.
that interest, i admire.
that management, i desire.
but that happiness taken out of it.
im thankful for many things.
things that would have otherwise caught me in so much conflict, pain.
if i were a planet in a universe of stars,
where will i revolve around.
as my stars collide, they burn brightly in fusion.
tomorrow will be an even greater day.
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